Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Motherhood and the Military

Photo by Tina Joiner Photography
Two years ago I was gearing up to depart for BMT.  I was eager to leave and start that new chapter of my life.  Fast forward and here I am, at another milestone in my life with a four week old daughter.  Nothing could've prepared me for these last few weeks, and the learning curve has been steep.  Little by little, things are getting better as I learn more about my darling girl and how to be her mother.  It's a humbling experience and I have a newfound respect and appreciation for single parents and stay at home parents.  ;)

How has motherhood affected me and my role as a service member so far?  I've found myself more hesitant to get back into my routine and normal duties.  Had she come on/near her due date, I wouldn't have to drill again until mid-July.  With her coming early, I should return in early June.  I don't feel emotionally ready to leave her just yet, or physically, in terms of having enough bottles ready (she's exclusively breast fed and hasn't tried a bottle yet, nor do I have enough in my stash).  I can't imagine how active duty moms go back so soon after birthing.  Fortunately, I'm able to reschedule my UTAs until later this summer, closer to when I have to return to my civilian job.  I've been really fortunate to have such an extended maternity leave, thanks to the nature of my job.  I hope to pop into this weekend's UTA for the sheer fact that I'll be awarded my CCAF at Commander's Call.

As for commissioning, I finished up the last portion of my physical the other day, the chest x-ray.  From here my physical results are sent for approval along with my package to AFRC or AFPC, either the Reserve Command or the Personnel Command, I'm not entirely sure.  I'll be given the dates for OTS and the opportunity to pick my top three.  My hope is to pick ones in between the holiday season and her birthday.  While I know she won't remember my absence and DH reminds me that they can travel, I don't want to miss those firsts if I don't have to.

In the meantime, I'm getting as much time with my little girl as I can!  Feel free to shoot me an email if you have any questions.  I spend much more time on my phone than I do on my computer (next to nothing).  In fact, I've written 90% of this post with one hand.  NOT easy or fun!

6 comments:

Bikegirl said...

What a gorgeous picture! you are so lucky to have a beautiful girl and a wonderful husband :) I must say you did inspire me to work really hard with my maths for getting into engineering, (repeating year 12 maths because I really did badly 20 years ago!)and as a result to got my first 2 credits with excellence! Woohoo!!

Erin said...

@Bikegirl - Thank you! I can't begin to tell you how exhausted I was in this picture - I didn't even want to be photographed. I had been up, literally, all night. Congratulations on your math improvement, and for making yourself proud! :)

Jennifer Roudebush said...

YOUR DAUGHTER SUCH A CUTIE :) your such an inspiration

Jennifer Roudebush said...

forgot to add in ---oops :)

AiringMyDirtyLaundry said...

Good luck with OTS! I had a friend who went through it.

Erin said...

@Jennifer - Thank you so much!

@AiringMyDirtyLaundry - Thank you! I'm a ways off, but it's definitely going to be a challenge!