Friday, December 24, 2010

#reverb10 Day 24 - Everything's Ok

What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? - Kate Inglis

It's been a tough year and there have been multiple moments where I've wondered if things were going to be alright. I've cried over our checkbook register, felt the stress of a higher-than-I'd-like credit card balance, and worried about a paycheck that wasn't going to cover all of our bills. It's a double edged sword when you realize what these sorts of outward worries can do to your husband's ego and sense of self. DH at times is either overly confident or he can see through my moments of weakness and vulnerability. It is when he holds me and cuddles with me that I feel that things will be ok. We've managed to keep holding on this far, living in a home we probably can't afford, and making minimal sacrifices in our lifestyle, aside from spending fun money. FIL and I have cleaned out the pantry for meals, skipped on evenings out, and passed on frivolous spending.

How will I incorporate this knowledge into the future? I'll probably ask for a lot more hugs, that's for sure, as we take another leap of faith from trucking into God-knows-what. I can only pray that we continue to pull through and that good things come our way.

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